The Journey

The past couple of weeks at school i have to say has not been easy and very hard to endure. It has been quite a challenge, no matter how hard i study or prepare i cannot get the material down. I'm currently taking biology, philosophy, and world history. We are craming a semester's worth of work into 6 weeks, its not a easy task.

The other day i got so frustrated with it, i reached the end of my rope. I didn't realize how hard the journey was going to be to accomplish the biggest goal i have set for my life. I began to doubt myself and think what am i doing, this is crazy. I will never accomplish the goal, dream, and desire of my heart.

I always park my car by the student center at UCA and walk to the Lewis Science Center for biology first thing in the morining because philosophy is beside the student center so its easy to leave the campus when im done for the day.

There is a one mile straight road i have to walk down to get to the science center. As i was walking i was telling myself, i will never amount to anything, what i was thinking going back to school, this was to big of a goal and challenge for my life to try to achieve. School was pushing me over the edge, then as i started on the road a voice spoke to me and said STOP!!!

I looked around and nobody was there and im thinking, man i've really lost my mind. I started again and heard it again, STOP!!! i looked around again and nobody there. The voice then said look with your spiritual eyes, not your physical and then i realized it was the lord standing there with me.

Then the voice said look up ahead at the journey before you, as i did i saw that the road ive walked on the past couple of weeks is downhill and uphill, some bumps in the road, construction was being done on one of the buildings, but something that caught my eye was that the road eventually came to a end with a gate at the end and it had a crosswalk drawing on the road, a finish line.

The lord spoke to my heart and said to achieve the desire of your heart you will sometimes have to go thru some uphill and downhill battles, a few bumps in the road, and allow construction to take place in your life. But the lord said thru it all im with you and if you keep pressing on and dont give up you will cross that finish line and achieve the biggest goal of your life and achieve that desire of your heart.

WOW, that is what i needed to hear, that is what i needed to motivate me. So you know what, i refuse to quit, i refuse to give up and give in. I will be successful, i will graduate at the top of my class and achieve my desire and goal, i will prove those naysayers wrong who have always said to me in my life i will never amount to anything.

Its a new day, its a new beginning, i will complete the journey, i will win the race, i will be victorus because i am a victor and not a victim. And when i graduate and achieve the biggest goal in my life i will raise my hands in victory and celebrate.